Day 73 - Love doesn't always mean like!

Baggy loves all the gang. She even loves herself; scars (physical and mental) and all. But that doesn't necessarily mean that she likes all the gang all of the time. In fact far from it. Baggy frequently doesn't like Grotty Groom too much for instance. Baggy is a pretty decent horsewoman. No, she doesn't really compete (Grotty has only ever done two dressage tests; although she got placed both times!). She doesn't do a huge amount of jumping. Although she has done cross-country jumps, she's never done a course of them. But her horse Wesley, is what is known in the trade as, "not a novice ride". More truthfully, he should be called an "Advanced ride". Just because he's very sharp and can occasionally be a little unpredictable. But Baggy keeps Grotty in that saddle through things that would have most people off him. Fact. Baggy has only come off him six times in ten years. Four of which were because he rodeo-bronked Grotty off because his back hurt. When Baggy had a professional rider ride him, (because Grotty couldn't), he had the rider off twice in two days. She decided not to get back on him. But Baggy knows she can sit his (very rare to be fair) daft moments. In fact, Baggy has always found that Grotty was given the "difficult" horses to ride. The ones with foibles. The sharp ones. The ones that didn't get ridden much because most people were too nervous to ride them. So Grotty should not be consistently losing her nerve. But Baggy knows that because Grotty hasn't been able to ride for months and probably won't be able to for another two months, she'll be terrified when she does get back on Wessles. It's very annoying. Grotty can be very annoying! Baggy doesn't like Grotty at all when she gets like that. But Baggy will get Grotty back on the Boy. She'll just put enough protective clothing on for a cross-country round at Badminton Horse Trials. Daft.

 

But today it's Hormonal Hannah that she doesn't like at all. Ever since Baggy had her Lawrence-the-dermoid-cyst surgery, the menopause has hit Baggy like the proverbial ton of bricks. Being an old bird, Baggy was already in the menopause when Lawrence was found. In fact she had ignored Lawrence for a very long time, because Clever Bird had thought that the pains that Lawrence was causing, were just the menopause. So it didn't occur to Clever Bird, that having a hysterectomy and a bi-lateral oophorectomy would bring Hormonal Hannah to the gang. But whereas before surgery Baggy's menopause symptoms were just the infuriating hot-flushes. The ghastly night sweats. And the crazy mood swings. Since surgery she has Hormonal Hannah to contend with as well. Her current party trick is to make Baggy "scared" to go to bed. Baggy has always been totally relaxed in this house when Calum is away at work. Not so anymore. She doesn't feel safe upstairs on her own. Fortunately she usually isn't on her own for long. Bracket kat sleeps on, or even in bed with Furry Mama pretty much every night. But Baggy's also lost all her confidence again. She's struggling. This morning she woke up in tears. Seriously, Hannah back off, Baggy is good and doing well, please do not knock her off track.........